Years later…

While I was living in Aspen, my boss and mentor at the time handed me a book, A Woman’s Worth by Marianne Williamson. One quote in particular struck a cord deep within me. Marianne said…

“As women, and once little girls, we had learned to give our power away before we knew we had it.”

In that moment, something ignited my soul and my eyes welled up with tears. I remembered my purpose of wanting to protect all of the children everywhere.

I wanted to make a difference in the world.

In my heart, what I really wanted was to feel loved, safe and that I belong. I wanted to be seen and heard.

I wanted to matter. I wanted the hurt little girl inside the heart of my soul to know that every time she was bullied, yearning to belong to something bigger than herself, she was already enough!

I WANTED HER, AND ALL OF THE CHILDREN EVERYWHERE, to know that they matter because I did something of value in the world.

That I made the world a better place.

But it wasn’t until I had my own children that I realized the most impactful way for me to protect all of the children everywhere is to heal the emotional and intergenerational trauma of the mother.

But I thought— Who would listen to me? Who am I? I’m just a stay-at-home mom.

And then I remembered- In my early twenties I spent my free time volunteering at the Foundling Hospital’s Crisis Nursery in New York City, I studied psychology and special education in university, and I dreamt of owning an orphanage. I graduated from the world renowned Institute of Integrative Nutrition (IIN); the largest global and accredited health and life coaching school. I studied over 100 dietary theories and I feel in love with Functional Medicine: Getting to the root cause of the problem.

The Mother of Lasting Transformation.

I left my multi-six-figure corporate job the day my water broke with my first child. Despite having a thriving career as a legal search consultant and coach, all I ever wanted was to be a mother and a wife— but it didn’t take me long to realize that in our society, motherhood is so devalued. Here I was, the CEO of the most important company — my household — and yet the false operating system I inherited from my ancestral lineage and that I experienced in my own childhood, kept me stuck and looping in a cycle of trauma and abuse.

Growing up my father was loving, present, and sensitive with me, yet I can still feel the vibration of the low frequency words in which he spoke to my mother. I dreamt of the day my mother would sit on her throne, recognize her value and know that she is worthy of honor and respect. Receiving these gender-specific mixed messages wired me with The False Mother Codes ™️.

Later I discovered that I carried my grandmother’s pain from being the only member of her family who survived World War II, the Holocaust. Carrying my grandmother’s survivors guilt wasn’t the only false program I inherited being a second generation Holocaust survivor. I learned that when my grandmother became pregnant with my mother, and fearing that the Nazis would take her baby away, she tried to terminate her pregnancy. This wired me with the fear of abandonment, and the shame codes — the most insidious of codes. Being bullied as a little girl added to this heavy emotional burden.

Most of my life, I feared rejection — although I yearned for connection. I kept sourcing relationships that showed up in the form of bullying. The kind of bullying so insidious that I wasn’t even aware of it until I began my own quest of self love, self care, and self worth.

I remembered my purpose for wanting to teach the feminine divine goddess how much she matters…

I wanted their children to recognize their value, listen to their inner voice, and become fully flourished and thrive. And in order to do that, well, I needed to go through that journey myself.

But the fear of abandonment was wired deep within my cells and I became a prisoner of my own subconscious violation. My operating system was preprogrammed to do, do, do, for my children, husband and family, and to sacrifice my dreams and put my need last, if ever met at all. I was trapped behind golden bars of shame and “I am not enough.” I was hiding behind motherhood.

“Shame is the one thing we all have, yet don’t want to talk about. It’s that part of ourself, the hurt little girl inside of us, who sees herself as flawed. She carries the fear of not belonging, so we bury her alive thinking she is safe, yet her soul is suffocating because she is dying to be seen and heard.”

And that’s when it hit me — that’s when I realized that I was at a crossroads; I was living a lie. Truth and Family are two of my core values, and I was confronted with my deepest fear.

I was afraid— but I knew no one could save me but myself.

So I made a decision. I found the courage to leave my emotionally and financially abusive marriage — no longer playing victim.

Stepping into my power and taking back my sovereignty enabled me to become the Warrior WomBan that I am today. I have walked far enough on my path to find my way home to self, and today I give thousands of other feminine divine goddesses the permission and tools to do the same. I am proud to say that I have created The Ancestral Decoding System ™, and No More — TEARS ™, The Emotional Abuse Recovery System .

Although I am not an advocate for divorce, discernment is key.

Even at seven years old I knew that love wins, connection heals, and that bullying is not an energetic vibration capable of supporting the feminine divine goddess rising: The phenomena of the Empress (R)Evolution.

I am here to help guide you as you heal through your own separation, because reclaiming your power has nothing to do with judgement of others, and everything to do with connecting and aligning with your soul truth. Audrie Dawn Academy was built because I never ever gave up on a little girl with a big soul purpose.

I am here to rewrite history- because it only takes one brave soul Mama to raise her hand and do the inner work, so her children can be free of the pain of her past.

It starts with you mama.